verucasalt123 | I need one of those posters

You know those ones from the 80s, with the cute little kitty hanging from a tree limb, and it says "Hang In There!!". Yeah, maybe that would be, uh, motivational or something.

I am hopeful that things will start looking up. My wonderful friend Laura came over last night. She brought me Chinese food, and wine, and Xanax, and I had relaxed ever so slightly by the end of the evening. Also got to have a long and silly phone conversation with the boy, which always lightens my mood. Something about the sound of it, when he laughs...I don't know. I like it. I like him.

I just realized that I've got the strangest collection of things in my purse. 3 kinds of lip gloss. A condom. A bottle of Ativan. A Happy Meal toy. Half a pack of matches from the Bellagio hotel. A newspaper clipping from the anniversary of my grandmother's death. I'm certain there's someone out there who thinks you can tell a lot about a woman by the contents of her pocketbook. I wonder what they'd think of me.

Hmmmm. I'm awfully contemplative these days. Oh, and skinny, too. 126 this morning. The goal still eludes me, but that's closer than I've even been before.

All right, enough silly rambling from me. Somebody tell me there's a magic cure for being fraught with anxiety for absolutely no good reason whatsoever.